Surgery Results

I was so excited that the surgery was over and done with, and that I am now on to the recovering, that I completely forgot to report the results.  I was also on some super pain meds the first few days, so that MAY have had something to do with it.

Anyways, they went in there with the thoughts that they knew the location of the cyst but they were unsure of what it was attached to (if anything).  Well it turns out that the cyst was not attached to my ovaries, and it was not attached to my tubes.  That is fabulous news, because they thought they would have to remove the tube if it was attached.  They said that this cyst was unlikely to have had any impact on my infertility but they were still happy they went in there and removed it.  They said that the cyst would have just continued to grow and if it got too large and attached itself to the ovary then there would have been a high risk of damage to the ovary upon removal.

They found "something" inside of the cyst that concerned them.  They sent it out to get tested, and it all came back BENIGN!  No cancer, no diseases, no nothing!  Yay! 

... So for that, we celebrate!

To all of the Trying To Conceive Mommys out there - - it may not get easier, but it DEFINITELY makes you stronger!  Cheers to Round #2!
              
                                                                      A Very Hopeful Mommy To Be
                                                                                      Lindsay       

Like a BOSS!

                Surgery was Monday and I handled it like a BOSS!  Okay, that may be a SLIGHT exaggeration, but I definitely could have gotten an award for having the most questions pre-op than anyone else, EVER.  I like to know what I am getting myself into, it makes me feel more confident about what is about to happen.  Needless to say, once I got my questions done I was MORE than ready!  Let’s do this!  Of course, my surgeon (who also happens to be my Reproductive Endocrinologist) was a little tardy.  This normally may have set me off, given the anticipation and anxiousness I was feeling, about to head in to surgery and all, but it didn’t.  She is really fabulous in all other aspects, so what’s a 10 minute wait for surgery?? 

                Anyways, I am now recovering “comfortably,” at home.  I don’t know what is worse . . the pain from the 3 incisions and the actual surgery or the side effects from the pain meds.  So the 3 incisions include one in my belly button, one right on my bikini line, and one on my ride side right inside the hip bone.  They are NOT attractive.  Stating the obvious.  Due to their locations it makes any movement involving your abs muscles a little more difficult.  Trust me, you use those muscles for EVERYTHING!!  I am realizing this. Either way, DH and I are trying our best to manage my pain as comfortably as possible.  And of course, with everything, DH is kicking butt being the best Caregiver I could I ever ask for. 

Although I was kind of looking forward to this week of medical leave from work, it has barely been 48 hours since I was under the knife, and I am quite bored.  Don’t get me wrong, I have been getting up and moving around like the doctors have ordered, (sneaking in a little organizing and closet clean out in there too, until DH catches me lol) but I am basically stuck in my bed, or on my couch.  Thankfully I have great friends and family who have been great throughout the last few days!  I have gotten countless messages, emails, notes, phone calls, and even a few care packages to keep me busy while I recover.  Thank you all so much!  I truly appreciate it!  (You know who you are!)

So the day of my surgery, DH and I were headed towards Boston and I saw this amazing video that had me in stitches laughing.  I think I was just in awe of this little boy.  I am going to post it here, because everyone should watch this AT LEAST twice. 

ENJOY!

A Pep Talk (Video)

Surgery

Surgery is tomorrow.. Not until 1:30, but we have to get there for 11:30. They said they need time to complete a blood pregnancy test before the surgery, and prep me for surgery, etc. I am not allowed to eat anything after midnight tonight, and am not allowed to drink anything after 9:30 am tomorrow. And the surgery should last just under 2 hours.

I have been trying to keep my mind off of it. I have reorganized almost all of my closets in my house. I also redecorated my office, my bedroom and the master bath. So, at least I am being productive! I am patiently awaiting DH to come back from his golf/work trip tonight... I will feel a lot more relaxed once that happen.

After I heal up from surgery (approx. 2 weeks) I will go in to see my RE, and possibly be able to start that quickly with Round #2 of IVF! Unlike the fresh cycle we did last time (which takes about 2.5 MONTHS) this frozen cycle is only supposed to take about 3.5 WEEKS!! Which means that in about 2.5 months (after the 2ww) I will be taking a pregnancy test if everything runs smoothly! That is so exciting for us and that end result is my focus! If I keep my mind on the prize then I know I will be a rockstar tomorrow in the OR!

Until then, I will have faith and continue to clean and organize until surgery time. Prayers are welcome!

Baby Dust Wishes,

Lindsay

This is Only a Test

Have you ever tried to accomplish something, and no matter what you did it was NOT getting done?  That is how we are feeling.  To be honest, there hasn’t been anything else in my life that I have ever felt like, no matter what I am doing, I am not making any progress and that all of my efforts are not working towards the results I want.  I feel like I have always worked towards something, and it worked out the way I had planned, if not immediately, then shortly thereafter.  This brings me to my point, “this is only a test.”

                                                  

I feel like I am a “work in progress.”  I feel as if no matter what I do, I am being told to be patient, and know that things will work out.  I know that these are truthful statements.  I know that these are principles I have been taught since I was a little girl.  I also know that sometimes I just don’t want to hear it!  I know this is something that is going to make me and DH stronger in the long run.  I know that we will come out the “other side” (baby, or no baby) having a stronger heart than we ever could have imagined.  I also know that if this miracle baby does happen . . we will be more grateful for this miracle because of this process.  But sometimes I just want to scream that I want a baby now, and that this isn't fair!  (Is that so awful?)

DH said the other day that he, “probably wouldn’t have appreciated the miracle of a baby as much, if this was not the path we were on.”  I know what he means, if we had tried for a few months or so and then BOOM a baby is on the way, maybe we possibly wouldn’t have appreciated the miracle as much as we will now.  This isn't saying that people who are blessed to have tried for only a few months and then had their baby, was any less of a miracle at all!  This just shows me that maybe, just maybe, we needed this in order for our baby to have the most prepared, appreciative, and strong parents that they could possibly have.  The other thought is that God just wanted extra time with our bundle of joy(s) before sending him/her down for us to enjoy.  And we are okay with that.

Thank you Jesus for all of our blessings.  We pray that you are enjoying our bundle, and we are ready for him/her whenever You are.

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                                                                                                   Baby Dust and Miracles,

                                                                                                                           Lindsay